Love isn’t in words

Almost 5 years ago my brother found a bundle of stray kittens our neighbor’s cat brought over to our back porch, there were five kittens that were a variety of colors aside from two that looked almost identical. There were two gray, brown and black striped ones, one black, one orange and one pure gray. Well we asked the neighbor to take them back to her house but she didn’t want them, so we asked around who might want them, my brother a little later spoke of how much he’d want one and to my surprise my parents said he could have one… figuring it would give him a little responsibility and since it wasn’t a dog how tough could it be. My mom askednif I wanted one but I didn’t, I had enough on my plate and I knew I would end up taking care of the one, but my wise mom convinced me it would be better if the cat had a friend so it wouldn’t be alone.

I finally said yes and soon we found homes for two of the kittens, leaving us with one more. We had taken the two inside the garage because they were infested with flees, mom and I began the process of researching how to care for and rid of flees for baby kittens and left the last one, the black kitten to see if the mother would come back to get her baby.

We kept watch and late that night the mom came and took her, a little sad but happy we started getting ready for not only caring for these babies who were going to need a lot of attention but also for my mom who was about to go in for heart surgery.

The next morning we found that the momma cat had brought back the kitten and left her on out back porch, we didn’t understand why until later that the mother was sick and couldn’t care for her little ones. So we took the last little one in and though we kept asking around if someone wanted a kitten we had no takers and we have three babies to care for.

Taking care of kittens without a momma is tough, had to get up in early hours to feed them, had to wash them daily due too the flees, (I sported tons of flee bites from this) had the buy expensive formula, make a pin for them to stat in (they were so tiny and smart! They kept finding ways out XD) it was a lot, but I never actually regretted any of it, even when i was exhausted from staying at the hospital and having to go care for the kittens (which I did have a little help with)

Over time I enjoyed the kittens, just watching them gave me joy, found myself singing to them and wanting over them, wanting nothing more than to keep them safe but I didn’t dare love them fully because I knew cats don’t have the longest life span.

One day about 9 months later one of the cats got out of her leash and left home, my mom was a wreck but we all knew she was not a house cat, she always wanted to be out and never liked being caged indoors, we still see her time to time but we left her free.

It was good because caring for three growing cats was getting tough on the wallet, did you know kittens actually eat more than cats? Yeah it was tough lol. I couldn’t afford much so used a lot of generic and net tips when taking care of the cats and of course some common sense, before I knew it they were growing and I found that they were not like other cats, well they don’t act like any cats I’ve been around.

I’m closer to the girl than the boy we have but they both show me a love I never would have expected before from a animal, let alone a cat, they can’t talk of course but they sure have their ways of letting me know they love me and I love them. I never could do much for them and boy did it take time ti get used to having them around, poor things got more tails stepped on than should be allowed lol but they still love, then someone is sick they wanna snuggle with them, when someone is sad they with mew and was to draw close, no matter how many times we shut the door, turn them away, yell no, they have no less love and no matter hiw mad I get I love them no less.

We can’t communicate in words but action, feeling love between us is amazing to me, so why should I think its different between me and the Father? He has given us words to know His love but its the actions… what He has done and does for us each day, allowing us the things we take for granted, giving us multiple chances to follow Him, giving us everything we need to fight the challenges we face.

Lets try to she love back by our actions, if a cat can do it we can too 😉


To be grateful


Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things {i} are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.                                                              

Philippians 4:8

When I was thinking about being grateful, this verse stuck out in my mind, mainly because when a lot is going on and negative surrounds me, I find it  a bit hard to be thankful, but when I make myself think on the good things, things that are of truth, things that are beautiful in my life, I find I have more of a grateful heart and a willingness to give the Lord praise in the middle of a storm.

I used to hear my mom say, ‘Someone always has it worse than you’ and that is true, and its something that I have to remind myself of constantly, to keep me from feeling sorry for myself and wanting to give up.

give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. “

1 Thes. 5:18

Some people think that we made up God to make it easier on ourselves as humans, but those of us you truly follow the Lord and obey (or at least try to) His commands would know without a doubt that’s just foolish words, because it is anything BUT easy, God has us battle against our very sinful nature, and though some may think they have it down-pat, they most likely have some issues they need to look at.

Do you see a man who is wise in his own eyes? There is more hope for a fool than for him.Proverbs 26:12

Mainly if you are following the Lord and you think you’re all that and a bag of chips, you have a whole other problem lol

Definition of thankful

1 : conscious of benefit received

  • for what we are about to receive make us truly thankful

Definition of grateful

1 a : appreciative of benefits received

b : expressing gratitude

  • grateful thanks

Being Thankful, being grateful isn’t always easy when you take for granted the blessings you get everyday, the benefits of life that has been given to us, from what seems small like the breath we take in to the sun and moon that rises and sets each day. God does that and we always just assume it will be done or it happens on its own for one reason or another.

He called a little child to him, and placed the child among them. And he said: “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever takes the lowly position of this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.      Matthew 18:2-4

When I read this I think of what Christ meant when He said to be like a child, and I think about when a little one sees the world in its truest beauty, when things are explained like how the Sun is so important and what it gives us to live, there is nothing like watching a child discover something they never knew or understood before and that is what it should be like for us when we learn and grow as The Lord’s children, we shouldn’t go in thinking we know everything, or anything for that matter, because how many times has the Lord shown up the strong and boastful by the weak and meek? His strength is shown through the weakness of those who are willing to let The Almighty work with.

So what do you allow to occupy the thoughts in your mind? How does it affect how you view things, how you view life? Is it amazing blessings one after the other, or is it a large black life sucking hole that you can’t seem to escape? It may not be something you think you can change but it is, its all about how you chose to go forward in your life from this moment forward.


~Thanks for Reading, Have a blessed day~


What Father we perceive…


I once heard a pastor say something that changed my perception of the Father YHMH forever, he said that we as humans tend to view God in the light of our earthly fathers… and whether we had great fathers or not, or even no father at all, that view is actually belittling our Creator.

1 Corinthians 8:6  Yet for us there is one God, the Father, from whom are all things and for whom we exist, and one Lord, Jesus Christ, through whom are all things and through whom we exist.

I found this to be so very true and from that point I began my journey to seek out The Great Creator in a true light which has taken me places that made me look more at myself.

I have found that one can’t see God in the majesty that is, if you can’t see yourself and a wonderful creation. Now I’m not saying that you need to be all self absorbed and just think your this gorgeous creature that is just God’s gift to mankind… But more to the effect of you realize you are a beautiful creation made by a perfect God, and understand this in humble humility.

Colossians 3:12 Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.

James 4:6,10

6 But he gives us more grace. That is why Scripture says: “God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble.”
10 Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.

I realize that The Lord isn’t human, He isn’t some fictional character in a book, He isn’t just some two dimensional being that is just fire and brimstone, He is so much more, so awesome and terrific and terrifying and good and beautiful, He isn’t just someone sitting in a chair ready to condemn us or just a person who picks on our flaws. Though I knew this I have not fully accepted this into my heart, mind and soul… But the closer I get to know The Creator the more I come to see just how amazing HE is and just how involved HE is in our daily lives, but the more we resist the more HE allows us to do what we think we need or what we believe to be best, often times for us to learn and come crawling back realizing we are not at all better off without HIM.

HE is the Master Planner, the greatest Writer to ever exist and I work on trusting HIM more and more, HE gives us all the tools we need, but its up to us to use them. So make sure all your armor is on brothers and sisters, be prepared for the Bridegroom will come, but the enemy is at the door, waiting for their opportunity to strike.

❤ ~JMW

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Created… not a happy accident

A famous painter used to say there are no mistakes, just happy accidents… and though this can work for painting this isn’t a way to see ourselves. God didn’t just create and man and woman and say ‘oops, well theres a happy little accident’ no He has a plan and purpose for everyone, but its up to us to live in that.

I’ve come to realize that i’ve been living my life as a person who was just a happy accident instead of someone made with a purpose.

We need to live with intent, live as we are meant too and love in HIM to the best of our abilities.

~just my thought~

Who’s really in charge?

I had to ask myself, who’s in charge of my mind? Who or what directs me? And I found that it was not who I thought.

How many of us listen to the voice in our head? But more importantly what keeps that voice in line? As a follower of Christ it should be only one voice we are supposed to follow, the voice of the spirit given to us

-Isaiah 11:2 – And the spirit of the LORD shall rest upon him, the spirit of wisdom and understanding, the spirit of counsel and might, the spirit of knowledge and of the fear of the LORD;

The spirit The Lord YHWH gives is a good one to say the least but we don’t always listen to it, I found myself listening more to the negitive voices so much so that God’s voice got quiet in my mind, I allowed His tender, kind voice be swept away by doubt and fear. But I will make a stand to put those negative voices in their place and turn back to The Spirit that The Lord gives. For it will givenme light and life in the decaying world.

We search for whats right there

I find it incredible… how we look and search for things that are right there for us to see.

There have been many times where I will get annoyed when someone says they can’t find something in the fridge and all they have to do is actually ‘look‘ for it, instead we tend to thinking EVERYTHING should be right in our face so we don’t have to look for anything, if its not right there then its not there… instead of taking two seconds to move something to the side to see for sure if its there or not, however I don’t get upset anymore because I have fallen prey to the same way of thinking.

For the last few years I’ve been having this strange pit in my stomach that has taken root and started to spread the poison of negative thoughts and a sorrowful spirit, thoughts that never bothered me before, started plaguing my every waking moment and though I have done many things to counter act this I realized that something needed to change. I have gotten to a point in my life that I can sense time passing now, regret has begun to tug at the corners of my mind, I am less sure about my choices in life and I have come to the point of wanting to seek out what I truly believe in life.

I have talked with many people, helped many with their life choices, helped them figure things out, but when it comes to myself I have found that; for me, no matter how much I want to do things on my own it is not how I was created to be.

I like being alone, I like being left alone, and yet the older I get I come to realize that it not how I was built to be, that is not who I am supposed to be, that I was created with a different purpose and I need to stop fighting that, for that is how the world deals with things, while God calls us to come out of the world (Rev 18:4 -6 ) (1 John 2:15-17 ).

It is the nature of man to go against what the Lord calls us to do, which means that we are going to grow angry or twist things that seem to be against our own interests, but if and when we actually take into account the fact that we were created for a purpose we got away from and that in Faith we should look to God and the reason HE made us, we have no reason to be angry or offended, less we are not of God (1 John 4:5).

I am starting a study on ‘Why Woman were created’ and as the first verse that came to mind was Genesis 2:18,

[Then the LORD God said, “It is not good for the man to be alone; I will make him a helper suitable for him.”]

I realize that we shouldn’t look at this in hatred because we think that anyone placed ‘below’ another is calling them less than, but truth be told, if a leader has nothing but other leaders, nothing would be done properly. This isn’t about Woman’s rights, this is about being created for a greater purpose than we can understand, its not about ‘Who’s Superior’ because in that case neither men or women are, we are made equal, just as people who work for a company, if it were a building filled with CEO’s then nothing would be done and everything would fall apart, but if people actually realized that from the CEO to the Janitor is equally important, then it wouldn’t be such a issue, its not God’s intention to make us think women are lower than men, it’s us who make that assumption, but if we actually looked at it as God intended, He made man and he NEEDED woman, and so two became one flesh, one whole. 1 x 1 not 1 + 1 or even 1 + 3/4

So I am going to start this study and hopefully it will help me see more clearly of what God’s purpose is for me and why I feel the things I do, I want to follow Him, not the World.


[\Then I heard another voice from heaven say:

“‘Come out of her, my people,’[b]
    so that you will not share in her sins,
    so that you will not receive any of her plagues;
for her sins are piled up to heaven,
    and God has remembered her crimes.
Give back to her as she has given;
    pay her back double for what she has done.
    Pour her a double portion from her own cup.
Give her as much torment and grief
    as the glory and luxury she gave herself.
In her heart she boasts,
    ‘I sit enthroned as queen.
I am not a widow;[c]
    I will never mourn.’
Therefore in one day her plagues will overtake her:
    death, mourning and famine.
She will be consumed by fire,
    for mighty is the Lord God who judges her.] Rev. 18:4-8

                                                                             ~Thanks for reading~